I gazed in the mirror with my red flannel on
I see messy blonde hair and dark circles under my eyes
I never noticed when the bruises and scratches had gone
I still wasn’t sure if anyone heard my cries
Too many people and too many noises
My heart was in pieces but my body had healed
A sweet boyfriend that cared were the reason I chose this
It was in the nightmares and fear that all was revealed
I couldn’t be intimate. Even hugs game me fears
The memories still haunting shook me to the core
Even just a kiss would leave me in tears
“If I got helped then I’d be better.” I swore
They gave me books and a calming technique
It wasn’t until someone had prayed
I realized prayer and Jesus I needed to seek.
That was when the fear started to fray
Love had replaced fear
Anguish and despair by joy and peace
I realized God had been here
Slowly the panic started to cease
I knew I was broken
I needed to be whole
God knows though I hadn’t spoken
He gave trust a new role
